Thoughts about the week.

I have thought and thought about my last post and all of your wonderful and helpful comments.
I don't think being a working mom will turn me into a sub-par mom.
I already work more than 25 hours a week.
I almost always have anxiety about situations I don't know first hand.
I have never worked full time as a mom.
I have been a full time mom.
I have worked full time.
But never both concurrently.

I think that's the problem.

I am willing to do whatever it takes to make my family work because I think that's what families do. You do what you have to do. And you live life. And you love each other through the hard stuff.
There is a good chance that there will be no other option but for me to get a full time job.
And I know that I will be able to do it, if I have to - I have several friends that have managed to work full time with young children. And they have done it well, gracefully and graciously.
God has given them the internal fortitude and grace. His grace will be no less sufficient for me.

I still have hope that this last resort is not the plan we arrive at. My heart's desire is to be with my kids for at least one more year. But I do not think I can articulate all the reasons right here on this blog that I am prepared for this eventuality.
Our life situation is potentially changing.
It's an exciting time for us - rife with growth and opportunity.

There are times, I have found, when one must sacrifice something to be able to arrive at the next level.

Who knows what tomorrow holds?
I do know that I have been given a free will and with that, I get to make choices.
But I am also bound by my covenant to my husband, to be his helpmate.

I believe that the time may have indeed come in our family when the best kind of parent I can be for my children is to be the kind of helpmate my husband needs me to be.

It could only last for a year.
It could be a thought dismissed by tomorrow morning.
It could turn into my career.

In any case, His grace will be sufficient for me.