When someone you love is hurting, you hurt with them.
When someone you love is hurt by you, it is a feeling altogether wretched and unbearable.
I have been tried and found guilty by the wounded. The hurt is real, although unintentional.
How does a person who intended no harm and feels justified by their decision facilitate healing?
I have inflicted a wound on this person that serves only to re-injure a deeper heartbreak and for that, I am wholly to blame.
I had only the best intentions in mind for the involved individuals,
but what is perceived as less than pure motive where some are concerned.
I am conflicted.
I am broken.
I am alone.
If it is possible to be right and to be wrong at the same time, in this situation, I have mastered the art of being exactly that.
Right and wrong.
In the end, the unsolicited, unintentional, undesired result is wreaking havoc on not only me, but also someone I care deeply for.
If you were to ask me which is worse, I'd say the latter is more agonizing for sure.
8 comments:
You are not alone. Unfortunately, we all bear this this burden at some point in our lives. For me, it is one of the most agonizing experiences to go through. The good news is, you go THROUGH it. You don't stay there. It's even possible to GROW through it!
Last night I hurt my daughter on accident and I felt horrible. I could make the pain go away. I was so sorry but felt like the worse mother in the world at that moment. I know that this not what you are talking about but it touched my heart and thanks for being so open!!
i am here for you anytime.
I think we are on the same "wave length" or something. After reading and commenting earlier today, tonight I receive a message from a friend that I have really unintentionally hurt very much. So, I'm feeling it with you.
Wish I had the magic cure for you. =( That is for sure one of my least favorite places to be. I hate hurting someone else, especially when I don't know how to fix it....
All you can do sisserhead is pray for them. Pray for the healing balm of the Lord to come and soothe. If I've learned one thing about relationships it's this: Relationships can be as fragile as the people involved. Sometimes when one or both persons are as fragile as the one in question, it can be like skateboarding through a mine field wearing a blindfold. You just have to expect conflict at any point and brace yourself for it. Now that it has happened, you just have to wait for time to heal and be obedient if God directs you to act. Only God can undo it. Give control over to Him. Get your hands out of it. He is fully capable of doing His work without your help. If you did the best you knew how to do at the time, that's all God expects from you. And He is the only way one who can judge your heart on the matter. And He is the only one that ultimately matters. He doesn't judge us based on whether we know what to do, He judges our hearts when we do what we do.
somethimes in life we have to make decisions that may hurt for a time but will be beneficial and life changing in the end. That is where you search you soul to know if the decision was God directed in it's action and then either repent or give it God's hand.
Remember all things work for good...
it's the ones we love the most that we hurt the most...some irony.
as long as your heart was pure and your intentions were true, God will fix the rest. ;)
You can please only God, not people!
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